Tuesday, September 30, 2014

does the moonlight shine on paris after the sun goes down?

does the moonlight shine on paris after the sun goes down? ♪
apparently, it does, along with the eiffel, the arc de triomphe, the streets, and everything else in between :)


not to mention brains lighting up with eccentric ideas :P


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Thursday, September 25, 2014

Monday, September 22, 2014

feminism

here's another issue i know practically nothing yet i should be concerned about seeing that it has a bearing on me being female - feminism. without doing any background research and based only upon prior knowledge, perception, and biases, the idea of feminism for me is akin yet limited to equal rights, gender stereotype, sex trafficking, reproductive health bill, GABRIELA and protests with lots of women shouting and making angry faces. for now, when i say "feminists", let's stick to my current, under-educated notion of feminists and feminism.

don't get me wrong, i AM an advocate for a number of things feminists are fighting for. maybe just not strong enough to call myself a hardcore feminist for a number of reasons. one, i am fortunate enough to be born in a time and in a country where the issue of women's rights is being tackled and acted upon. my parents raised me and my siblings with no gender biases. i was made to hammer away furniture for repair or climb trees or do car maintenance while my brothers are made to clean the house, do laundry or cook and vice versa. gender was never a consideration when choosing which program to pursue in college. in school, all aspects of home economics were taught to both girls and boys. sports was no gender issue and neither did i feel academically discriminated because i am female. i am allowed to run and vote in all sorts of elections. my working experience may be limited but i didn't feel judged based on my gender, rather, on qualifications and achievements. to be fairly honest, in the philippines, the most prominent stereotypes weighing on equality seems to be religious and cultural rather than gender. japan, on the other hand, probably needs more advocates for gender equality in the workplace. they're such a macho society.

two, sex trafficking seems like a world away and i cannot associate myself much to the issue. neither have my time with government or non-government organizations brought me close to the heart of the issue. so, while it clearly exists and while i sincerely condone it, it's hard to fully empathize when i have not actually seen their condition nor talked to victims first hand. while it is true that prostitution is indeed a MAJOR feminist issue, it is definitely also a major issue that has to be addressed by the labor and employment department.

three, i cannot remember what occurred but GABRIELA made such a bad impression on me. perhaps because they seem to be always shouting and making angry faces on national television and i don't want to be associated with them by calling myself feminist. i do commend their action during this one time many years ago about the alleged rape by a US marine. some organization does need to support those kinds of issues so taht it doesn't get burried without making a resolution. perhaps it's high time i look into GABRIELA once again and understand the purpose of their existence.

the concept of feminism has been used too often and too liberally i believe it has somehow lost a part of its true meaning. people often confuse feminism with courtesy, manner, and tradition like holding the door open or paying for a meal or who gets to court who. some also use it to incorrectly interpret things like the RH bill saying "i am a woman and i have the right to my own body..therefore i have the right to decide for abortion" or stuff like that. that's not what the RH bill is about, silly.

feminism seems like such a wonderful word for women: go for women's rights! female empowerment! and all that. but on the other hand, the twisted view of feminism also brought about a noticeable shift of perspective of a woman's role in the society. take for example the movement of empowering women in the workplace. in effect, more and more women are climbing the corporate ladder which requires time, effort, and attention. but that doesn't change the fact that women are still perceived to be the home-maker and child nurturer of the family leading to a lot of people putting working women, especially working moms, on a pedestal with the negative effect of labeling full time housewives as "lang".

so, in the end, i'm not really sure how much of a feminist i am. i can and i enjoy carrying the heavy stuff as much as i enjoy being told to carry the lighter ones. i enjoyed karate as much as i enjoyed gymnastics. i still expect to be treated kindly and gracefully on occasions because i am female and men who do that are good mannered and respectable themselves. i do not get offended when people hold doors open for me, neither do i get offended when told, "be a man!". i would not do the courting though, haha. blehh :P

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Wednesday, September 17, 2014

it's a wrap

Day You Said Goodbye, Allison Moorer

when the first hint of sunshine
peeks between the window blinds
and the morning hits my pillow
the sweetest dream is left behind

i'd rather die than face a new day
'cause i always wake to find
that i'm feeling just as lonely
as the day you said goodbye

can you feel me reaching for you
in the middle of the night
what i'd give to hold you, darling
within these arms of mine

all my heartache would be over
if my dream came true one time
then i wouldn't have to live with
the day you said goodbye

goodbye
the unnecessary stuff people do on weddings, haha, but unquestionably fun [vimeo]
happy anniversary darling, from your PA haha.
hmm. hmmm. shut up, brain. don't think. :P
not entirely mikado afternoon, who likes to be called "the other" person anyway? but okay, for hug-niversary!
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let her gooo ♪

 time stamp NOV2011
..please keep nothing from her so she'll know where to place herself in your life. but if you can't, please let her go. at the very least, you would be doing her a service for not making her look like a fool. and if, in your life, you place her behind your responsibilities to your family, to your work, to your hobbies, then please don't ask for her hand in marriage. should it come to that, then please, as early as you can, let her go..
literally rolling on the bed, laughing right now. oh, the stuff one writes when in that terrible state of parang kayo, pero hindi hahaha.

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Tuesday, September 16, 2014

ただいま戻りました



the process of moving is never over until my little dream catcher has taken up his rightful residence over my head. これからも宜しくお願いします。

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Monday, September 15, 2014

vandaag in zwarte-witte

special thanks to ali for helping with the move. you'd be surprised how heavy 12" of course notes weigh.





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Saturday, September 13, 2014

a roll of tissue a day keeps the booger monsters away

ladies and gentlemen, let's all cheer for nosey who's been running a marathon since yesterday! forgive her for being a little slow because she's dragging fever, headache, sore throat, and all kinds of body aches along with her. gah, pamper me, pleaaase! on the brighter side, running a fever is the perfect excuse to wear winter clothes on a 20 degree weather.

arf!
..and roll in bed for the whole day. not very exciting when your skull feels like cracking, but still.
..and eat anything i want so i could, you know, regain my strength and all :P
..and try out new apps like this photo editor which can do doodles. xperia's own photo editor had the doodle feature before but it's no longer in their latest update. bad move, sony, bad move :P
..and rediscover stuff on my phone, like this one, haha.

there's no time stamp but written probably around the end of may if i haven't figured out how to get the receiver sensitivity yet. the professor didn't have major comments on the project so i believe we did okay. o, ha! quite proud of it, actually. his only question was why the sensitivity we mentioned was about 0.15 dB different from the figure presented. while, yes, it could be that we decided to be a little conservative with the estimate to ensure a lower BER, the real reason was actually less dramatic, that is, we missed updating the figure after the final optimization change. bug! to think it even passed unnoticed through virginie's reviews. OC, that one, i tell you. even her notes are immaculate. REPORT
..and watch a mowbee!
..and get miserable over the fact that the recent solar flare did not produce the aurora borealis i was expecting over belgium T_T nobody really prays for solar storms to happen but i hope we get another huge one within next year. just huge enough to incite an aurora over here again, please, i don't want to feel too responsible for the end of the world.

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Saturday, September 6, 2014

withholding truth


□ on withholding truth from the road less traveled by morgan scott peck

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Thursday, September 4, 2014

selfie


obviously, a selfie. because getting on the wrong train and having had to endure another hour more on the road brings out the closet narcissist in me. lels.

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Tuesday, September 2, 2014

itinerary, anyone?

this is how we plan, haha.

ate: let's include a trip to versailles?
me: oooh! that's where the chateau d'if is diba from the count of monte cristo?
ate: no, that was marseille. 
me: oh, was it? oookay. write it down anyway :) remember a tale of two cities and the storming of the bastille? the bastille is in paris :D
ate: the bastille! ooooooh, let's!  
ken: where? 
ate: it's this old state prison in france. <short history of the storming of the bastille, bla, bla> hehe. so, next stop, moulin rouge? 
ate & me: ♪ giuchie, giuchie, ya ya dada ♪

hahaha. thank God for sisters who don't find me weird for marking references to stories nor for singing spontaneously. or we're our own kind of weird, all worked up and giggling giddily on skype over scarves and mona lisas and edmond dantes.

looking forward to visiting the red light district..in the name of culture :))

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